Wednesday, February 25, 2009

lauryn hill


Where did she go? Her music was SO influential and honest.
Her voice is SO moving, chilling, mood changing. Powerful.

She is one of the artists that has stuck in my head ever since the first time hearing her.
I wonder about her more... more.

I wonder.. does she have a house in the middle of no where
with her husband and kids?
Does she sing around them?
What does she do everyday?
Does she have a garden?
How does she live? What has she learned lately?
What has influenced her? What has taught her lessons?

I applaud her for speaking out, and getting out of the game of money, success, and fame.
But I....
She is very influential in my life. She still is.
Her messages are still being taught to me....
I am unlawfully demanding more from her when I haven't even learned all I can from what she has said already.

Thank you, Lauryn Hill for all your lessons, experiences, trials and tribulations. Thank you for your music and words.

here is a link to wikipedia's story on her.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lauryn_Hill

and here is a link with some statements from her husband.
http://www.blackvoices.com/blogs/2008/08/11/rohan-marley-speaking-up-and-standing-by-lauryn-hill/

I checked out her myspace page.
She joined in 2006 and her latest blogs are from 2006. her latest login was 11/28/08. The page seemed hopeful in 2006 when she wrote a blog "why do I have a page on this site"... she wanted to hear the people's voice.... our voice, and stay in touch with us.

Anyway, I hope she is doing well. From researching, it seems like she has gone through a lot.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Its so hard!

Raw/live food
Vegetarian
Vegan

so hard to do.
I have a hard enough time eating "healthy"
There is already alot in my life that I worry about

excuses excuses excuses.
I tried the raw food for approx two and half weeks.
I lost ten pounds, my skin felt the best its ever felt, I felt like I could do anything physically.

But my mind wasn't healthy.
It was poisoning.
Maybe I didn't make it long enough...
I gave in.

its so hard to eat well, with out training your mind to poison when you mess up on the diet.

mess up = negativity in my mind = poison.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

i owe you

i love you.
i owe you.
I am sorry.