the ego shall always remain.

I used to think my ego needed to disappear...
It is so evil and selfish.
It only cares about its own survival.
"the ego" can only survive on negative energy frequency... positive energy frequency is too high for it to use. (thoughts = energy)
So my ego is always trying to create the negative thoughts and illusions in order to stay alive.
It is so sneaky sometimes.

But this morning lying in bed.. and being woken up by cramps at 4:30am, I realized my ego will always be in the background of my life. I am never going to be completely free from the strive to stay alive by my ego. It will always be scheming.

The important thing is, to know when it is striking me.. or to know when its striking someone else. If I can sense it in myself and in others, I will be able to see through the illusion created either by me, or by someone else and realize that unawareness is the culprit in action.

Of course its not that easy.. even when you know the ego is in action, its a difficult task to stop its negativity. In my experience it is easier to catch ego's games on my own; and it is also easier to notice the ego in other people. But the hardest (in my experience) is when you are your ego during interaction with other people (friends, spouse, family, boss...etc)

Sometimes my ego....
tells me I'm fat
tells me I'm not good enough
tells me my personfriend wants to leave me
tells me I am superior to other people
tells me I might die if I don't do what society thinks I should do
sometimes it even tells me that my pets are controlling me

jealousy, grudges, revenge, superiority, inferiority, fear, and illusions are all my ego...
they are all created so my ego can eat.
but its inevitable, and all I can do is be aware of it.