extreme or natural?

Sometimes I have strong feelings to go against the grain.
check out of "normal" living, and into natural living.
money, job, bathing, home...tend to have a lot less value.
things like purpose, passion, bliss, trust, fearlessness, fill me and excite me. Its a feeling felt in spurts. I think its the feeling of being unattached from everything. Its trusting the flow of life, trusting abundance of food, money and love... and trusting the inner consciousness, and its ability to fulfill your dreams and intentions with out "hard work"

it comes and goes.
goes when the structure mind picks back up, and fear sets in.
fear of ultimately death, but in the short run... poverty, dark places, hunger, loneliness.

it comes and goes. Which one is extreme? Which life is the one I should be living? BOTH?
Is it a balance of the two?

the word "bad" is poison its self.

I don't think anything is bad.
If you are a conscious person... or conscious while doing it
*conscious = aware, awakened, right mindset, good intentions
then its not bad. HAH.

we are all in charge of one person in this life..... and that's YOURSELF. hah, isn't that exciting news
(well unless you have kids, even then you are there to guide them in their own journey)

Why would I want to spend life worrying about what I'm doing wrong or what other people think I'm doing wrong....

I love YOU for you.